~anon

I don't know, maybe I am doing it all wrong. For the last 4 months, I am doing everything to help other people, in any way I can, with my knowledge, giving them cash, making effort to find all the right people to can help further, asking favors... everything. But, for the matters of my personal satisfaction, I experienced only the disappointment. This is not only today, I didn't wake up on the wrong side of the bed. Aw, no. I monitor all these people every single day, day after day, week after week. No change. Only 'me-me-me-me, give me, I want more, I am so sad...'And WHEN do you plan to give some of that attention to me? Not to steemrepair! That account is for the staff and it earns for the staff, I excluded myself. It is written in an every single Daily Digest. But to me, to this profile.When these people - who joined my community effort and that server that I have - ask for help, scream that something is not voted or think that they deserve help just because they think they deserve it... I help them.But, on the another end, they earn multiple times more than me with multiple times less effort and they still ask for help, ask when they will start earning big...But I don't see any of them commenting on my stuff, no matter what I do. Most of my articles earn less than half of the sbd in total, and many are completely untouched with no feedback. I see people reading them, using them, but I don't see a feedback, I don't see any kind of a reaction. I don't care for the upvotes, but all that bitching for minor nuisances and overlooking one BIG thing like what a hell I did for that admin, is kind of being a big ass asshole in my opinion. This is not only a one person. This is everybody. Where are your comments? Where are when I need you? Why don't you help me at least to feel that you want my presence here, that you want me to do all this? Why are you so blind so self-indulgent and so damn selfish, you just want a big fat spoon shoved into your own big mouth but you didn't stop for a second asking yourself - what a hell aschatria wants?I want your comments! In more than one occasion a random person was quoting my own work to me, and when I asked to check the name, I got one pale 'oh, thank you..' but nothing on my stuff publicly. I never even mention that I need any upvotes. Even in the trail, I give up my own upvotes so that others can get it. I equipped 3 accounts to vote on the members just because.I didn't do it because I am nice, I done it because I want something from you in return. Yes, in return. Is this so surprising for you? If you can ask, so can I. You are all so nice when the place smells on money, but at the moment I open one question, you are all so damn busy. I am wasting all my cash and my time here, and all I get for no feedback is that you don't have time, your phone is broken or you need to feed the cat... I don't care for your excuses. Working on others without any reward is exhausting. I want my work also to be appreciated. I want to see it, in the same way that you see it. I don't want your 'thanks' on that server or on the group account, I want it publicly displayed on MY profile in here, on Steemit, under my post. Because without it, nobody knows, I am invisible, I am anonymous. And if you don't change, and you don't care, then ... why should I do it? I will then become the Anonymous. Completely. Have a wonderful day. ~ anon