“I’m starting to feel like myself again.”
That would be a lie.
Because the truth is—I’ll never be that girl again.
I’ve had to grow, to evolve into the version of me that’s required for this phase of my life.
And honestly, I’m still trying to make sense of it all .
These past few weeks have been overwhelming.
I had to pause and process everything that’s happened—especially in the last three month.
And I’ve come to accept that things will never be the same.
So now, I’m learning how to exist in this new reality and embrace everything that comes with it , having to deal with a new born and a toddler barely 2 years+ .The pains of breastfeeding, sleepless nights, waking every 30 minutes . waking up early to prepare breakfast , doing laundry, cleaning the house and more , at some point I was so depressed.but what more can I say ,am grateful for the new stage.
My mom was a big blessing in those moments, she came for Omugwo( i.e an Igbo name given when a mother visits her daughter who just delivered a baby in other to take care of her and the child.)she would wake up carry the crying baby to the living room Singing lullaby and baby songs just curdle him back to sleep so as to allow me rest .my husband was supportive too , i remember him always taking my toddler to his room to avoid him clinging to me also doing some house chores before going to work.
How I felt then doesn’t change where I am now.
And sometimes, how I feel moving forward may not matter either… because life is different now.
And I’ve made peace with myself .
Looking at him now am so happy,those pains are gone the sleepless nights are still there but am glad and would keep going.
This weekend our baby was dedicated to God in church. Just the normal custom of christians in Nigeria and countries all over the world, after some months preferably three months of being at home caring for your child and your self .we finally went out on Sunday , our first Sunday outing. Many people gathered from different parts of the city of Aba ,and other states in Nigeria to follow us to church .This procedure is well cherished and observed by most christians in Nigeria. From child naming at one week old ,to child dedication or baptism at few months mostly 3 months. We are super thankful to God who made this day ,and to my family members and my fellow Christian brethrens who made the day a joyous occasion. And to my hive family am grateful,scroll down and enjoy a wonderful view of the our baby from a day old to dedication .
