For as long as I can remember I've always wanted to make father proud, I've always wanted to see him happy so I never stopped shooting for the stars .
It all started when I was 6 years old , father had a bit of a struggle then ,
his business wasn't at it's maximum,
causing a financial turmoil in the family.
Because of his then current situation mother left ,and she gave up on us .
I can still remember the event like it was yesterday; she pulled out her bags , Dad was beside her begging while I and my elder sister stood at the corner in confusion but my younger sister stood by her side.
she looked at me and said goodbye without a hug or even a second thought of how I would survive this betrayal.
and with her luggage in one hand she pulled my little sister along with her.
I still didn't understand what was happening , I thought she was going on a trip, so I sat and awaited her return.
Day and night I waited expecting her to return ; Dad was devastated but would not show it except in a slightest provocation.
But despite all this , he stood strong and held us through , pulling the shambles of his home back together, wrestling the problems at work to a complete halt and with Great Grace reclaiming his home.
But the truth his that no matter how fast we run from the problem or how quick we fix it something was always going to be missing ,
and the happiness we shared as a family is ever going to be glitching.
So day and night I pushed further and further , I tore down the academic wall and built it back up with nothing but intellect,
I humbled every opposition in my way ,
and I ran the race as fast as I can .
And with each victory a new trophy and a smile on father's face,
all was going well ...
2021 Everything went South.
Just after the covid situation , school resumed , and in that moment it was all fun and games , as I lost focus and fell of the wagon.(this was the moment I fell in love and had my official heart break )
It was unbelievable as I failed again, again and again academically.
I felt my heart crack in an instant ,
my dreams lost in the pain .
What was I going to tell Dad??
"I fell in love and I lost focus?"
or
" I fell in love with someone who never acknowledge my existence??"
No excuse would have done it , the deed was done and now I've been signed to a new league.
And with a heavy heart I presented my failure to father , it was my first failure and I could see the pain in his eye,
his son was now a failure...
No family is without a problem ,
No home is without a crack ,
No individual is perfect,
Everyone has a story to tell .
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