Today is Sept 8, the nativity or birthday of Mama Mary. I almost forgot because I went on Twitter (X) to read some controversies because that's what X notifications showed me. 😂 How funny right?

But then aside from controversial posts, I saw a photo of Mama Mary. It reminded me that hey, it is Sept 8 and I thought it was a First Friday too! (My mistake though haha.) Immediately my feed/timeline/mind was cleansed of the garbage social media keeps feeding us.

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If we keep focusing on garbage, our minds will indeed become a garbage can. Much better to cleanse it from time to time. Or keep all the dirty things out! 😉

For example, lately I kept thinking if I should go on a long overdue weekend vacation or not. Like, why even think too long about such things? Haha. If you need to and can afford a vacation, just go. 😆 But there I was, for several days I had such thoughts at the back of my mind.

Actually I had been postponing it for months now. Either I don't want to spend money because I need it to pay for medicine or medical bills and/or I have no constant income as of now so better not do it at all. Since I can't decide anyway even if I want to go, I returned my thoughts to God.

Learning about St. Faustina and St. Therese

I think I started looking into the lives of saints again since August. After attending a recollection about the Divine Mercy on July 29, I began checking on St. Faustina online. Her story is definitely fascinating.

Unfortunately for me, when I started listening to the daily readings of her diary, some entries were kind of unclear to me. It seems there is quite a big discrepancy of her level of faith (when she wrote those things) and mine at the moment. The words used are easy to understand but not easy to grasp at all.

And so I decided to switch to another saint. I also saw some videos about St. Therese on YouTube so decided to check on her some more. But of course life happens too so I can't just go online all the time.

So anyway there I was, I kept on thinking since yesterday, should I or should I not go on vacation? Well I have an upcoming medical procedure and all that jazz. I kept on thinking about the pros and cons. I even ended up posting the question online on one of my social media accounts. 😂 Of course they all said I should go. sigh I still could not decide until this morning. 😆

What else was I to do if I can't decide right? I have nothing else to do today but wait. Am waiting on the medical abstract from the doctor... Tsk. Can't keep playing mobile games or watching TV shows and movies online because it's pointless. Work? Got nothing as of now. House work? I already swept the floors last night. When all else fails, I decided to just turn my focus back to God.

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_{Say hello to my latest YouTube watch history haha}

I went back to learning about St. Therese of Lisieux a.k.a. of the Child Jesus. Finally, my mind got calmed, my indecision and the little bit of stress it caused has left me. Again, this reminded me of what I have decided since after Lent. My life is dependent on God now. It is not my will that I should follow but His will. 🙏 Whatever He decides that I do in life I will follow. (I pray that I can follow it all.)

And voila! Watching the life story of St. Therese is quite interesting indeed. Imagine, being a child of two people who wanted to become saints? Wow. Also, she and her sisters all became nuns!!! Mindblowing right? (Of course I have no plans to become one, but a saint, ah that's something to aspire for.)

Now I think I should really read the book of St. Therese. Haha. Ang problema I still haven't read the 2 books of Fr. Jocis Syquia. 😆 Only read almost half of 1 and that's it. Haysss... I prefer to watch videos now more than reading books. Oh well.

I just finished watching a short documentary abt St. Therese. And I will continue watching such videos later on. 😁 For now I will go back to living my life. Haha. Have to go pick up a document then submit them somewhere. Oh what a life. 😅

Happy Friday and have a good weekend everyone!

XOXO,
@artgirl