Dear friend I really appreciated your comment which tends to a sincere outburst, if you were here I would have helped you in different ways but unfortunately we are far away. The only advice I can give you is what you have already implied in your comment, draw and paint, always! Don't beat yourself up over failures because I still paint crap too and try to improve. Later you will look at the world with other eyes that are surely as deep as your soul and your understanding of problems.

A very big hug.