Hey friend, it's good to hear from you. When you say...

My brother, if you wanted her with all your heart it would be so. But, like my own, I believe your heart is conflicted

I'm not sure if you're referring to Amanda or the woman I told her about. I can't be with Amanda as she is no longer physically here, in regard to the other woman I just kind of feel like she's dealing with a lot and I don't really want to try to pursue her when her loss is so fresh. Maybe in the future, but... I'm just not really getting the vibe she is wanting to meet up with me so I'm not going to push it.

I do think what you mentioned about detaching is some powerful stuff and I have recently sort of "let go" of all my dreams in regard to romantic stuff for the most part and am focused hard on working for a while, I think if I do it this way and work hard that maybe the romantic thing will come down the road when I'm more successful. :)

Though, ultimately to be as free as I am right now in my mind is a great gift... It would be much more difficult to buy me off considering the extreme loss I've already dealt with... And I've been able to spend a lot more time trying to help the world because I haven't been in a relationship, so... I try to see the different aspects and would like to experience some more romance, though I'm just so busy right now I think I gotta focus on me for a while. <3

Thanks for the very thoughtful response! It gave me a lot to think about.
Also, I look forward to chatting with you more on discord! Peace friend. <3