Lessons learned
Bridges burned
Never learned
Only yearned
For solace
Induced the fray
But free today
Ask myself why
It all went awry
I know too well
I was in hell
Descending further every day
Convinced myself that I must stay
Mandatory
So now looking back
I do have regrets
But I cannot dwell
There’s no respect
For those who choose hell
The fall of man
The man who fell
I ask myself every day
What is it that made me stay
Another dollar another day
Until it all falls away
Slavery
I dug myself into a hole
I screamed aloud
I lost control
I placed blame upon another
I just needed to recover
I just needed a breath of fresh air
I just needed some level of autonomy
With what I do with my time
Now I’m broken freedom is mine
Indeed I was out of line
Aeons of wasted time
I can’t help but think
Of why exactly I did sink
One’s ship is their own dilemma
But when adversaries push a vendetta
They drill holes and fire torpedoes
Masking true colors (to others)
Incognito
I could see through them from day one
But I’m left knowing that I enabled
Their attacks on my sanity my dignity
The one truly at fault is me
Volatility (turned into hostility)
There was no excuse
The jagged end of the cake cutter
Was my intended weapon
I was simply a bystander
I could not control my intentions
But I could control my hands
So for little to no reason
I chose to make a stand
Quick sand
Improper coping mechanism
Indeed there was quite a schism
After all it is OK
Today is a better day
