A breach of confidence
Police the populace
Between the two metropolises
Let chaos reign without consequence
So many are doing so well
Maybe that's a positive
So why am I trapped in hell?
I guess it's a matter of perspective
My last 20 spiritual awakenings
Were illegitimate
You are incapable
Of controlling my sentiment
And as wrong as I can get
I will still choose to resent
The type of people they surround me with
I can pretend, but only for so long
And I guess none of these people
That actually have privilege will ever admit they're wrong
Yet I'm judged twenty ways ' till sundown
For quitting my job and breaking down
"So what have you done for all those months?"
I watched South Park bitch I guess I'm just a dunce
But double cross me once
And don't expect
Me to have continued respect
I played that game for far too long
I really need to move along
I really need to make a change
But desperation fuels my rage
I can't hide it
I'm done with giving you a thousand chances
My mind dismembers you when I feel your glances
You act like I'm the one who should bow down
But I didn't hear a fucking sound
I probably won't ever be renowned
I've got a bad attitude
I'm such a nice guy
Who flips his lid when you are rude
And to look back on all I've pursued
I can see I've tried
But not hard enough
To be able to shove peoples' bullshit back down their throats
Not hard enough to relocate and have a pet goat
So where am I trying to go?
I guess it doesn't really matter.
All I know is it is my own perspective I need to shatter
My mind is battered
I can't answer your questions
My own well being I have been neglecting
When I die I'll become a demon
Forever you'll hear my screamin'
When you close your eyes you'll see a devil
My entire life and death shall be disheveled
Maybe I should have never tried to be positive
Maybe I should have just been my self
An inept ogre with his talents on the shelf
You cant understand how I still turn to depressants
You can't understand how I'm constantly regressing
You can't understand why I don't have a smile on my face
You can't understand why I spray you with mace
You're a fucking waste
I plead my case
It's time to get the fuck out of this place
It's post apocalyptic
On the surface it doesn't look bad
But everything is scripted
My perspective has shifted
Unfortunately it's no longer lifted
Whether or not I'm gifted
I know I'm not consistent
I'm not a religion
I am the reaction
I am the fission
I used to have a vision
Now I feel too old to turn back
Because I have been conditioned
Like every other human living
I am not forgiving
And I won't blame you for not forgiving me
All I ask
Is that you never ask another god damned thing of me
Not a second of my time
Not an absurd rhyme
Just leave me all alone
'Cause that's my only home
You may think I am a clone
But look at your facade
You are the one who succeeds
With a smile and a nod
Your judgment is a reflection of your own self
Worthless fiat is not true wealth
I need to make my plans in stealth
No I don't need your fucking help!
You can see I let them get to me
It's been a long time since I've lived happily
Indeed this is a choice
I feel I've wasted my voice
Potentially adroit
But I'm drowning in my plight
Take a single glance
And you can see that I'm not right
Don't want any pity
But I still feel shitty
I just wish you would stop with your preconceptions
They leave me disconnected
Fuck being respected
The more fame they have
The more synthetic they are
Fuck any notion of being a star
I am far
Beyond a thing they can comprehend
My consciousness has been God sent
I've opened minds
I've seen them closed
You arrest those who have disclosed
You pose
You pose with your election speech
Yet security has been breeched
The populace you have beseeched
But you won't get a thing from me.
