I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to turn awareness into a fear of not doing things appropriately the first time/before.
I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see, realise and understand that I’ve allowed fear to ravish, influence and control me, in which I partake in and am then immune to being aware of what is required, what must be done, the way forward, again, because I fear that I’ve not done things the best way possible previously.
I see, realise and understand that doing things in the best way possible as what is best for all is not rocket science, it doesn’t require thinking, dilemma, delay, obsessing, mathematics, anything like that, it just requires the moment with myself, my breathing to realise I’m here with my physical body, and the awareness follows, because that is what is here, all I am is me, I can then see clearly without lying to myself in thought.
When and as I see myself being aware of something I can improve/do better/best, yet allowing fear to prevent me from changing because I fear what I’ve done before has not been right/as good/best, I stop and breathe. I see, realise and understand that this journey is ever-changing, and I am ever-improving, and with improvement comes acceptance of how it is I can improve. With acceptance comes realisations that I have been lying to myself, that my starting point to doing something was not what was best for all - but not always, it can even be a simple matter of improvement that I had not realised because I learnt new things, new techniques, and so to incorporate these new techniques and such, I accept the past and past me, and allow myself to gain, grow, learn and improve - that is how I level up myself.
I commit myself not to stay stagnant, mundane, the same, repetitive. I commit myself to explore new ways, new techniques. I commit myself to discover new ways. I commit myself to through acceptance of how I can improve, be unconditionally open to new ways of improvement, because that is change. Change doesn’t just happen, it requires acceptance, understanding, willingness, even risks.
I commit myself to turn a fear into an opportunity.
I commit myself not to fear my past me/decisions I’ve made, and despite me making these decisions and doing what it is I’ve done, I commit myself not to fear changing things I can still change in relation to the past decisions I’ve made which I see I can change and alter the outflows whilst of course changing myself and so current and future decisions within and as improvement.
