So .... Iām going to get ready to head home as this trip is coming to an end ..... and I have to say .... I am pretty proud of myself ...... Iāve been in close proximity to the man I love ....the man I wanted to be with.... my best friend .... and I havenāt sent a text ... made a call to ... or reached out in any possible way ...... I was against the idea of coming out here ... but I think it was a true test of if I was ok ... If I could be so close and not reach out ... if I could be so close and still manage to keep my distance rather than sulk ... but I have to admit ... I did look around wherever I went to see if I would see him .... I always told him ... he would probably walk right by me and not even notice ... lol
Anyway ... I had an amazing time ... plan on enjoying every second I have left ( which isnāt much ).
