15 years ago I never would have imagined being where i am today.... in many ways that’s not in a good sense .... I find myself at 40 years old ..... basically a single mother of three children ...... having fallen in love twice in my lifetime.... the first time I married him ..... the second one was the one that gave me the courage to walk away from the abusive marriage I was in..... don’t get me wrong ... he didn’t beat me on a weekly basis .... but he did play mind games .... manipulated me .....verbally abused me ... and hit me every so often...... I had a health scare and a few health issues since ...... I’m a person who appears to be fully in control .... but actually I can’t control anything ..... I did do somethings right tho in my life ..... I have three wonderful children .... I run a successful business ( which may have been even more successful if my husband wouldn’t have interfered) .
Oh, if you’re wondering what happened to the second ... I think I made him wait so long that he never thought it would happen.... I mean I’m not stupid .... I knew he was still checking out his other options ... I guess I just never thought it would happen when it did .... actually more like I never thought until it happened .... I predicted that it would near the time it happened ... I told him ... your going to meet someone locally and fall in love ... get married ... I was right .... despite him telling me I was wrong ... lol .... it’s okay tho ... I’m happy for him ... he seems happy .... and honestly .... with all the issues I come with ..... he is much better off with her.... I can’t say she loves him more .... or knows him as well as I do .... but I can say she makes his life happier than I would have.
It’s crazy ... how life changes .... sometimes I wish I could turn back time .... I wish I could change so many things about my life ...so many things in my past .... it’s been a really really long 40 years ..let’s see what the next few years bring.