If you’re that young, take care of your personal health and get yourself into a sane environment first. I would sell some BTC for fiat at a high price (hopefully before the halving) and focus on improving quality of life. Later when the hardcore anarcho platforms are truly resilient and hardened, then you can use the remaining crypto you were hodling to participate. Hodl some. Might be worth $1 million per Bitcoin.

Your mental health is the most important, especially when you are young. Focus on that. You still have a lot of time to earn more in the future. I wish there was a sane church I could recommend to help you (e.g. to get out of an abusive home situation and make sense of this crazy world). At the moment, I think most of the churches are also corrupted and I have some issues with how they push for controlling others via the government. I am not your typical religious fanatic. I can’t explain in detail right now.