Who am I? It is a question no one would want to know unless you're famous and stuff or if they're actually interested in you. But really, I'm just a nobody. A normal girl, living a normal life but is drowning with ideas and imaginations that needs to be showered to others so that they may know and see my own side of the story. And that's pretty much the main purpose on writing my blogs. Life. Music. Poetry. Love. Self. and everything that is in between.

I bleed music.

I was born and raised in a family of musicians. My father plays the guitar and my mother often sings. Bee Gees, The Carpenters, The Beatles, Fra Lippo Lippi, Air Supply, America, Bon Jovi, Guns N' Roses and Outfield, are just some of the bands that I grew up listening with. My parents would often play this on a surplus player and I would just sit down and listen to it. Eventually, I was able to memorize the lyrics at the age of 5, I think. Lol. My father taught me a bit of the piano when I was in elementary. But after that, I went my own way of learning it in a more professional kind of way—I enrolled in a piano lesson on a certain music school. And it paid off! I was able to widen my knowledge in music and piano for a month there. I have been playing the piano for almost 8 years now. I also do back-ups, but it doesn't mean that I sing great, its just that I "can" sing a song with less flats and sharps. Lol.

I could never, ever live a day without music. My system would always thirst for even the tiniest of sounds to travel in my ears. You may think its a bit over-dramatic to regard music as something "that" important but the truth is, to me, it really is "that" important. I've suffered depression for years since elementary and the total sadness and darkness that you've felt within those years are horribly suffocating. Hence, Death seemed so beautiful to make love with. In order to refrain myself from falling to the pits of hell, I express my depressions through writing music. And I wrote almost every day. I've lost count to the small compositions I wrote before because some were unintentionally deleted either by me or by my cousin who owns the phone I recorded in with. (I'm poor. I don't have the professional music stuff musicians record songs with. Lol)

It is Therapeutic.

Writing songs and expressing my feelings through it felt therapeutic to me. I was able to distance myself a bit from thinking of Death. I was able to live for another day. I share some of my compositions on my Youtube Channel, not just for exposure, but for other people to listen and read the lyrics of my song on how life can still be beautiful if we just try to breathe for another day. Below is an excerpt from my recent song "Bedroom 24". I have also pasted the video link in case you would want to hear it :)

I don't wanna live
another day
But I cant taste
What life was made
So just breathe
Just one more time
Live to love your life

Facts that no one gives a shit about but I want you to HAHA

Fact 1: Otaku Shits

As you obviously observe on the pictures I post here, its all anime girls. I am a genuine otaku. Well, at least I regard myself as that. I read mangas, I watch animes, I even simp hard for f***ing 2D character men. Lol. I watch hentai (not gonna judge 😏) and all of its marvelous genres. Except for tentacles, monsters and ugly bastards I think. Its just too...weird. Lol. But I don't cosplay. Its not because I don't want to, its just that I can't, cause I don't have enough "resources" to support my cosplay fetishes.

Fact 2: Food Porn

I love food. That's it. Periodt. 🤣

There are food categorized for every mood. Even sex. And that's what makes it good. HAHAHA. No but really, I live on the motto "Food is Life", and it is. Weird thing is, no matter how much food I eat, I don't get fat. I'm not bragging about this or anything but biologically, our gene pool consists of thin bodies especially when were on our teens. And it's a big insecurity for me because in my country, thin girls are considered ugly :( Even if you tried so hard to explain that you're biologically thin, they just keep on insulting you :( But! Thank God, I have gained weight nowadays. And I am loving every bit of my fats 😁

If I could have the opportunity to travel around the world, the first thing that I would do, (besides checking out the bars iykwim) 😏, is tasting their food. I'm not picky, but my preferences differ every minute. So the way to my heart, is food. LOL. Ya'll be givin' me a bouquet of sushi instead of them damn roses. HAHA

I can cook and I can clean.
Yes I do the cooking, yes I do the cleaning.
I can be your dream housewife.

Fact 3: It's So Fluffy I'm Gonna Die

I LOVE CATS! AND DOGS! I like animals except amphibians, worms, and reptiles. I don't hate them but I just wanna stay away as much as possible. My skin would crawl with goosebumps whenever I see one. BUT CATS AND DOGS OMG CUTE. I owned one cat, a white male cat with skyblue eyes and two dogs. A furry and a short haired one. I love them three and my heart would really break if they were to die someday 😢 I am against animal abuse. We humans don't deserve the love and loyalty these animals give. We should, like nature, give our respects and love back to them too.

Fact 4: Yamete Kudasai ONNNIIIII-CHAN

The picture has spoken.
That's it.

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAND that pretty much sums up about who I am. But I can still go deeper in expressing myself but I have thought that I would just let that show on my next upcoming blogs :)

I am a newbie here and I am soooo excited of what awaits for me ahead in this kind of platform :) Nice to meet you all and I hope we could all be friends! :)