before, solitude was deafening
i wanted to escape
and so i looked for a way out
and there i saw these lights
i was important
but for a momentary cause
i wasn't wanted or needed
i was just a toy
and so i went back to my room
where the walls were my only comfort
my bed would pat my back
my pillow would tell me to rest
but then i was tempted again
but it was the kind where it was real and true
i tried to fight for it and loved it unconditionally
but somehow, i was not of heavy value
and so i went back to my temple
my own four-cornered mansion
a space fit for one stupid queen
my room, my bed, my pillow
and so solitude will always be
the only chamber i can be at peace
i dont mind being lonely
i always have---i just got used to it.