You need to stop touching a wound if you wish it to heal. Get ways to deviate your attention (healthy ways). You can't keep stepping into junk and dream for purity. You need to vanish those darkest and useless feelings by stopping nurturing, gaining them and feeding them.
Something/someone who meant to stay wouldn't have brought you here. They are the reason why you need to forget them and it's enough to move for a better destination.
Let them go away
Stand up
Heal and live ur life to the fullest!