The pregnancy strip in my hand was telling me that I was pregnant. My head was dizzying looking at the strip. “How could this happen to me?” I asked myself. “Was I really unaware of my condition? No, not exactly.” Flashbacks of incidences of a couple of past months started revolving in front of my eyes.
My tummy had started bulging out. My mom had noticed it. She told me that I might have been gaining weight due to the psychiatric medication I was taking. I am weight conscious. I started doing the exercise of pushing my tummy inside. However, it didn’t make any difference.
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I had been having unusual pain in my left leg. Also, I had a great backache. The vomiting had also become a routine. This all made me think if I was pregnant. I told him “I feel like I am pregnant. My physical symptoms are of pregnancy.” He negated me with great confidence. He said it was not possible because he always uses a condom, and there wasn’t ever any mishap with the use. I trusted him. I believe he was not lying.
I thought my symptoms might be due to the clinical depression that I had been suffering from those days.
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I started feeling slight movement inside my tummy. It felt like there was someone inside me. I told him but he refused again. He was not ready to accept there was a chance of any such happening.
I also negated myself. I thought there might be some gastro problem that I was feeling over-sensitively.
But now, the strip was telling me that my doubts were correct.
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I felt like a bomb was dropped on me. I was not ready for this. I told my mom about the result of the strip test. She became worried. However, she told me, “This test is not always reliable. I should go for an ultrasound.”
I went to the doctor and had my ultrasound done. The ultrasound result revealed that I had a pregnancy of four months.
I had an argument with my husband that day. I don’t know if I was angry, dreaded, or anxious. I remember I was crying. I asked him why he negated me when I was telling him that I was feeling pregnant. He should have considered what I was saying.
He replied it was not his fault. If he denied it, so did I. After all, we had a strong reason to deny it. Yes, he was right. We had a very strong reason to deny it.
What was the reason?
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I had menstruation every month on time. Though the bleeding was not that heavy as it usually does during menses, yet the arrival of menses was enough to ensure us that I was not pregnant, wasn’t it?
We had been using contraceptives after the birth of our first child. During those two years, we only once had unprotected sex. I could think of being pregnant if I did not have menstruation in the coming month, but how could we think of pregnancy if I had menstruation not only that month but also the next three months consecutively.
It was astonishing news not only for me and my husband but also for other members of our family. How it was possible that I had a pregnancy of four months, and I didn’t have any idea about it before. The most baffling and special part of the scenario was the fetus was safe and sound despite having menstrual bleeding.
Though both of us, I and my husband, were not ready for another baby at that time yet we accepted the miracle wholeheartedly.
I had to wait for my first baby for more than eight months after acknowledgment of his presence in my womb, while the second baby was in my hands only after five months.
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He is the baby we didn’t plan for. We were not even very happy at the news of his upcoming arrival. Nevertheless, he is now the most precious asset of our lives. He came into our lives in a miraculous special way and made our lives delightful with his presence.
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