AI image, "A painting of a woman dancing in a psychedelic universe"
Hey Hive community,
How are you all doing? As much as I'd love to be spending my time writing deep blogs on politics and personal growth, I haven't been doing much of that lately due to big work projects and attending to my health and personal life. What's on top of that is this larger theme of my late 20s summed up in two pictures below:
I'm going through huge changes in my life right now, and suspect that even bigger changes are coming soon when it comes to work, an intimate relationship, and even moving to a different state. The spiritual changes have been significant too, with all the work I've been doing to deepen my inner life and heal past traumas, along with the challenging health conditions associated with these traumas.
Then there's the daily demands of emails, video editing, meetings, newsletters, generating content, and hosting conferences. Needless to say, I've been quite stressed balancing and managing all of this. My ego wants to complain, compare my life to others, and fixate on worst case scenarios. I've been somewhat effective in not giving these unhealthy aspects of my ego too much power. In general, I'm pretty good at bouncing back from low moments and seeking perspectives that help me see the bigger picture. Yet recently, this process of self-regulation has got me feeling more like this:
Plus, the roars of the world feel overwhelming to me right now. Culture wars, geopolitics, rising centralized power, the unprecedented debt load in our country, you name it. It's hard to know what to trust these days, since nearly all of our government agencies are captured by powerful interests that try their best to keep us in the dark about their covert agendas.
Despite the chaos of the world, the bigger picture keeps showing up...
My growing maturity seems to be aligned with my capacity to trust my own inner security, no matter what happens. The very compassion, respect, and attention I want from others is what I need to give myself first. And when it comes to work and understanding societal issues, I'm in the process of finding more of my voice and forming my own opinions. I can feel my confidence in myself slowly rising.
I'll end this post with a video highlighting some of my sessions this past week. Dancing is basically a daily practice for me, and I record about half of all my sessions. Sharing with the Hive community surprisingly motivates me to keep progressing in my freestyle dance practice. When I get too caught up in my head about my own process or the craziness of the world, I put my AirMax 97's on and move my body. Dancing helps me grieve and express my emotions in ways that I can't verbally. Other times, it reminds me that there is much to celebrate and to be in my joy about. And I'm so grateful to have beautiful love in my life, which is often the inspiration for my dance these days :)
