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I was in a mood to write, to write things as they usually are, but we still choose to live in an illusion where, like ourselves, we are never guilty, but everyone else is. It all applies to myself in the same way, and I am guilty of it in exactly the same way. I am totally guilty and guilty of what this person thinks I am. Because it's an illusion created by them, that's their reality.
So much for perspective and opportunities for open conflict. Preventing this conflict is a fine job, but I often can't do it, because people are just starting to feel guilty about me, and then I'm not really going to let you do what is already a power struggle and we're playing with prey on an energy level. Unpleasant feeling anyway. Do any of you feel familiar with any of you?
In the case of a dispute, the clever thing is that we never know who is really right or who is wrong, we only look for those points. We're never gonna think that maybe I caused something in the chain? Always a defensive stance we have and the attack then happens to the “opponent”, it's nothing that “want a good” debate.
We don't plan on a dispute where we feed our anger without hearing from the other party, we just hear and often use it for our own good. That's the way you look at yourself, it's good to talk, because without the facade, I'll admit that I've done it before. I have taken a great step by admitting it to myself, but if I confess it to the other party, and then there comes a new attack that, for example, “You're doing it now!”, I really do want to have a defensive attitude in me again. When I say he's right, he says “Don't play the victim here now,” it's back to my mind, playing sadistic with a prey. I will not enter into any more disputes if it can be avoided by slamming the door in front of all the people who are trying to do this to me.
The dispute is always bilateral. Let's talk about general arguing or such nagging. It's not like the guilt only comes down on one. If one party finds the other guilty of something and starts accusing him, that's exactly what the first one did wrong. He has no more right to do so than the other party did not.
When the other party blows up the first one in anger, it must be understood that you have just been politely informed by a reflection that something has been left unspoken and disagreements have arisen, but since he chose not to show it with anger, he also expects the other party to see the elementary notions of selfishness and the separation of paths. Arguing is always bilateral, no one likes to argue, just in certain moments you dislike each other, that's why misunderstandings arise.
The ones we like, they're trying to like us and find the most golden way to solve the situation. So the next time you make an argument with some nasty saying or snapping first for no greater reason, you know that the other party was not prepared for that and the defence attitude is reflected in actions or words. So it's a reflection of the other one.
In the past, I tried to give people a breathing space and a chance to understand that they were attacking me and that they would think from themselves how or what exactly they were doing, that the same behavior would come out in me every time. Look, I notice that when something starts to upset them, and I try to bend my story, change the tones, and so on... I struggle not to go beyond the mental boundaries of certain people.
But I wish to see my signals as well as how I do not wish to be interacted with me. That's what I've been trying to do among people.
As long as people can't just communicate with me without their facade and make me believe the whole time that I'm guilty of everything, then no more. I choose freedom and choose to live in this world so that it is good for me to be here so that I feel at home, kept and loved.
And if that's the peak of mental illness, then congratulations, I just finished a certain crazy tour and got that diploma. I understand that the real freedom is to completely and knowingly drag yourself out of every influence that suppresses you. I'm even the model, you can learn from me in the future whether I did wrong or right, but anyway, here's the beginning of a little motivational support to set yourself free.
Well many people are cornered and often taken advantage of as energy food. Try to avoid anyone you feel with, that there's always just some kind of quarrels and disagreements, and where you don't feel free.
There are so many different opinions in the room … meaning people. Fuck who's told you not to leave that room.
Of course, it's hard to fuck all the current ones if necessary, but at the same time, damn it feels good if, in the end, nothing is going to work out if it's an attack on you.
Apparently I'm a bad person now. But honestly, I didn't mean to be, I just didn't understand. I left.
Justification? The good thing is, it doesn't have to be explained to anyone. However, if you wish to justify it to yourself, do so in such a way that, because there are certain situations in your life and it disturbs you, you are also entitled to change it.
Who forbids you from starting a clean slate with the people you're dealing with and who listen to you, who are flexible, friendly, who can appreciate cosmic understanding and communication through the soul level. Do you know how warm it feels?
When searching for errors, they try to find solutions with understanding and satisfaction.
Liberating when there's no one saying how worthless you are, because in reality, you feel without an estimate that you're valuable. You live. You're breathing. Now live more informed and breathe more informed. You are aware. Tie yourself to other people like that, and be an avowed 😍! That's exactly what I said in Promised Living … does it sound good? I'm sure it's nice.
