Trigger Warning
When I was a young'n, I was with a man who ended up fathering three of my kids. My sons. (He ended up fathering a daughter with his wife. He didn't marry me!)
We were living in this place on Cardero in Vancouver. I saw a major side of him that I had not seen before. One day he couldn't get any pot and he was cranky as hell. I was sitting on a chair in our kitchen and I was pregnant with my second child. He got angry, and picked up a thick Batman glass, and whipped it at my head. It shattered in my hair. In shock, I ran into the bathroom and sat in the bathtub. I slammed the bathroom door. I don't think the tears came right away, but I was carefully trying to pick glass out of my hair.
He came in roughly 15 minutes later. Apologizing his head off. Blaming the fact he had no pot. Me pregnant and very emotional (which if you know me, I am hardly emotional) I freaked out on him. I begged him not to do it again, in tears.
He didn;t. But instead, he kicked holes in every room of our house. He kicked a hole from one side of a wall to the other. To the point where he put my NKOTB poster over it, to cover the hole. He ripped cupboards down, he beat on the floor...
About 4 ish years later, I left. I mean I was trying to fight it out. I was hoping he would change. Its hard to write about this now. There's so many things that he did. He took a friend of mine's bag and whipped it into the hallway. I had to agree with him, because I lived in fear. Fear he would snap and hit me, or hit one of the kids. Or take it out on our cat. (I lost so many cats, they would run away and stay away.)
I mean he beat the fuck out of his stereo all because he couldn't stand Savage Garden. He stuck a knife in my VHS copy of Untamed Heart, because he didnt want me to have it.
He broke the original copy I had of The Crow. :(
I have apologized to many people who he hurt, took it out on did stupid shit to. It's alllways the abused one who apologizes, not the abuser themselves.
Nowadays he has calmed down. He was baptized and is a "good christian kid" now... but wow, if people only knew what he did to me.
