Today I wanted to spend some time on one of my favorite hobbies, but honestly, I don’t enjoy sitting at the computer to do that anymore—I feel pretty uncomfortable and stressed, which is why I’ve stopped doing it. Drawing went from being one of the things I loved most to becoming an obligation, an increasingly intense challenge I set for myself… Today I remembered that I could do it on my phone, but of course, that means starting from scratch—it’s practically like relearning everything and resetting my brain to a different mode. It’s possible to draw really well on a phone, but it’s really complicated.
I connected my tablet to my cell phone and got comfortable in my room, put on a TV show I really like in the background, and was feeling pretty relaxed, but I didn’t know how to draw properly. The entire screen of the tablet is reduced to a tiny spot where you can draw, and you have to instinctively figure out where the cursor will be. Honestly, I found it really frustrating, but I tried not to give up because the thought of being able to draw from the comfort of my bed was just incredible.
But I couldn't finish it; it stressed me out a lot, The tablet’s functions are limited to just drawing and using the eyedropper; I can’t use the buttons on the right side of the tablet, I can’t access the eraser, change the zoom level, or adjust the color—it’s quite limited. I have to perform those actions directly on my phone using my other hand while lifting the stylus off the tablet, which is way too awkward for my liking. And even though I feel like I got pretty far with my sketch, I wasn’t able to continue.
I've been thinking for days about drawing something that captures a little of the pain all Venezuelans are feeling after what happened, and today I wanted to practice a bit on my phone to see how it would go, but I realized I can't, so I'll have to do it on the computer. But first, I need to get my thoughts in order so I can express what I'm feeling, so it'll take me a little while.