Last weekend I did horribly at a competition.
I was pretty demoralized.
But oh well, as I've learnt, no matter how good or bad I do at a comp, I always take something home.
This time though, it stung a lot more, way more.
No it wasn't just because my team and I didn't win or anything.
It was just that I was reminded heavily about what I suck in, which is dancing.
Yes, I suck at dancing. In Bboying, I pretty much ignore the dance aspect of it. I don't feel comfortable on two feet, so I prefer to go to the ground. As a result, I tend to rush my sets. Add in the nerves of a competition, I fuck everything up.
And fucked everything up, I did.
It may sound dumb, but I still feel self-conscious about people looking at me when I dance. I feel like they'd laugh at me.
But it's time to get rid of the excuses.
In this video, you can see me trying to dance on two feet. That's me trying to toprock.
Wish me luck. It's a new journey in deed, despite me being a Bboy for over a decade.
