One thing about life is the world only sees when you win they do not see the process the failures and everything and the work you have put in for years is the amount of years is spent looking stupid being failing privately and getting back up after.
Many downfall it's always invisible so success with just the final chapter and you must try one more time until you succeed or else people laugh at you and there will be no evidence that you tried or you worked so hard for where you are today.
Don't give up. Make the move. Work on yourself. Keep being your best. Putting up your best and you really deserve it
for who you are.