As I wait for sleep to consume me, I overhear snippets of news from TV from the next room... My sleepy brain rejected what the man said on TV, "He's lying."
I froze. My brain reset itse out of sleepiness, filled with disgust.
"Why my first thought was assuming deception?"
I don't know who was talking... I had no knowledge about the topic at hand... I had no evidence to base my assumption of lying on.
Is it his tone of voice? Is it because it's on news? But I noticed myself doing this again and again lately... Even on the internet... Even in the real world...
When did I became like this?
When I stopped giving people the benefit of the doubt...?
When I stopped seeing the world as an inherently innocent place? Somewhere struggling with corruption but
Sleep approached me again... I don't care about the news anymore... Now, I just.... Wish...
I wish to go back to my naive self that trusted people...
Yeah, people are more likely to hurt me that way, and I'll probably become cynical again, or even more cynical... I wish I never become like that...
I wish people weren't like this...
We hurt each other for no reason... I can understand self-preservation... At times, it's a kill or get killed. I don't talk about those times... We hurt each other for no gains, for no losses...
We've gone astray way too far...
I wish... I forget about this by morning...
Fin
