yet some of your heart is breaking at the same time

So you feel it too? Lately the sense of nostalgia, of time passing, and time lost is so sharp that it is like a pain. Shake it off and move on.

Louis Armstrong and It's a Wonderful World: who is not moved by this. There are times I cannot listen to it. That is the magic of music (of art). It captures the inexpressible. It transmits feelings without words.

The passing of your mother and the birth of your child: is it not cruel and at the same time precious that these two came together?

It's a beautiful essay. I related to so much of what you say here. Thanks for touching my heart and not making me cry (came close).