Even though I'm not quite an extrovert person but I kind of like visiting places if I'm opportune, I love trying out and learning new things, infact I have some list of places I have always imagined in my head offhand to visit of which heaven knows why I haven't but in as much as these attributes of mine are shining like a diamond stone, the only thing I know I don't have plan or ever imagined to do is SWIMMING.
My fear of swimming didn't just start but basically because of the fear of water around me.
When there's much erosion, I'm scared cos starring at the water for long makes me feel dizzy. When having my bath, the water must rush down to my face at a normal pace and not rushing too much. It makes me kind of feel like I'm losing my breathe or it skips.
No matter how I see or love to see people swimming, I don't think there was ever a day I thought of swimming to show how much I am scared of entering into the pool. My boundary and limit lies beside the pool where I get to eat, drink, relax and enjoy the coolness of the water that breathe out, lol. I enjoy watching swimmers as well.
The worse of it is telling me to take a ferry if I was going to a place that could be routed with water transportation for a faster travel. I prefer taking the road and spending 12 hours or sweating profusely in traffic than taking the water means where I don't get to see houses or cars passing by and it's just the waves of water around me front, back, left and right. I would only try that if I'm being given Valium5 before boarding me in a ferry.
Swimming is what I love to watch when people swim but fantasizing swimming is a No No all because of my fears. Maybe and maybe if I am able to try it with friends or family and I'm sure and could see that the pool isn't a deep one, has tyres that I can actually sit in and I'm able to stand close to the exit in case I no longer feel easy or comfortable doing it, then it will be better and I'm so sure it is what I'll love doing if I'm able to eradicate my fears.
Now considering I was just standing or sitting close to the pool and someone intentionally threw me or pushed me into the pool because he or she knew my status and the only option I have is to save myself unlike Kdrama movies where a handsome crush somewhere would jump into the pool with his fine suit or outfit, then I pray I DONT DROWN.
I've seen movies where people training first timer swimmers would tell them not to be scared of the water or drag with the water when swimming cos they tends to be heavy with that and get drown unless they flow with the water then it can carry them BUT at that point of saving myself, I'm sure all these virtual and movie lectures tends to be like saying my last prayer cos in as much as I don't want to be scared and follow that instruction, the fear and anxiety won't let me corporate.
IN SUMMARY! ME AFRIKEN! I don't know how to swim, I have never swim, swam or swimmed, lol so I have no experience and I pray my first experience if I'll ever try it should be a good one.
I will be dropping my 🖊️ here on the Hive Learners community prompt.
Thanks for reading through 🤗
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