I wish I had wings to fly. I wish I could open my door right now and walk even in the darkness that fills the street in this silent and lonely night. I am so upset right now, confused and scared. I hope I will be fine.
WHAT HAPPENED
I want to use my computer right now, I brought it back from work this evening but I can't find it anywhere in the house. My laptop is gone. Where can I find it?
HOW IT HAPPENED
I closed from work by 4pm today, Nigerian time. My service days are Tuesdays, 4:30pm - Only 30 minutes after work. My place of worship is just 15minutes by car from my office, so I headed straight to service from work.
I had my laptop with me on my way to service, so at the service, it sat on the seat next to me. How did I forget to take it home after service.? How come no one noticed in the service to ask for the owner of the laptop?
But on my way home, I remember stopping over at a shop to buy tomatoes, fish and leaves. I wanted to eat fresh vegetables with boiled yams. I remember holding that laptop with my left hand while selecting the tomatoes that were fresh. I remember dropping it on a table to ease my stress, I remember, oh my God I remember that I forgot to remember that I took that laptop to service; so as to ensure I took it home.
I have woken the tomato seller up tonight with my call, she didn't see any laptop. I called the christian brother who is in charge of locking up the doors and windows. He seem not to have noticed any forgotten laptop.
I am so sad right now. I want to work on my laptop and I can't find it. I am sad that I was with my family members from service, yet no one noticed that the bag was gone. I don't even need to shift blame right now. I am just here losing my mind, worried where I could find it if it happens not to be in service by tomorrow morning. I just wish I appreciated the laptop more and took good care of it
I pray I find it tomorrow morning before going to work. I got that laptop four years ago and it has never developed any fault. I have many important files in it, I can't begin to imagine life without that particular laptop.
As I lay on my bed, I pray God grant me some hours of sleep. Left with me, I should remain awake, pray all night long for the laptop, trusting in God to help me locate it tomorrow morning. Another part of me says accept that it is gone and begin to mourn the loss.
But I simply can't.
LESSON LEARNT
I need to pay more attention to details. How could I go with a bag heavy with laptop and not feel light later without it?
I have also learnt to carry my family members along. If I told someone to remind me to pick the laptop after closing from service, definitely someone will remind me.
Lastly, this reminds me of the saying that "you never appreciate what you have until you lose it". The laptop, although containing many files and information, has never made any impression to me other than 'keep it free from virus and handle with care while moving it about'. It hasn't occurred to me that I could misplace it one day and lose sleep. This is past midnight and I haven't slept. 馃槂 Well, may God help me find it tomorrow.
Thanks for stopping by to read this. My heart is heavy, so I decided to write about it and post in feelings and emotions community.
I have been trying to get back on hive. I really want to. I never knew this is the way am coming back. Hahaha. Coming back with a heavy heart. God please I want to come back to say I have found it, please.
