It's another #ladiesofhive community contest and the topic for this week is
If you were to die tomorrow, what would you wish you would have done while you were still alive?
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This is a very thoughtful topic that helps one reflect on oneself. We all have one or two things we thought or ought to have done if given a second chance.
below are the few things I would have done if given a chance to stay alive
Express Myself
I'm someone who does not speak out because of shyness or fear. I don't let people know what wrongs they have committed towards me or offended me; I don't know how to confront them, and it obviously hunts me. Seeing the person acting like everything is fine kills me, but I would rather tell another party about it just to feel better and still give instructions not to let the person be aware of it.
This attitude has ruined a lot of my relationships, especially I just assume the person should know, but it is not always like that in most cases. There was a particular friend I had in school, and I regretted not speaking out. I never knew she would stay long on earth; she died without knowing she offended me, and I felt so bad and horrible.
But now, if I get another chance, I will change the narrative.
The Four Letter Words (LOVE)
I wish I could boldly use the word #love to express my love to my family and friends. Tell my mom and dad "I love you". The word is so magical that it is blameless and heals wounds. my greatest pain today is I never told my dad I loved him till he passed away. I only speak it into the air and pray he hears it and sees how much I love him. I still have my mom around to show and tell her how much I love her and how she means the world to me.
I have love within me, but I don't know how to express it or show it, and I see and envy others in how they express the love. I try to learn and practice it, but I always fail at it.
Passion
While I was growing up I had a passion for a lot of things sure as I always wanted to be an #accountant, a business mogul, and #philantropist. This dream or passion has never come true since I couldn't become that beautiful accountant. I stopped chasing the rest, but if I could take back the hand of the clock, I would love to start again, get it right, and be that lady I always desired to be, but it is not just easy; society, economy, and country are not also helpful in regard to this.
Now I live to survive, not chasing my passion but to live.
This is my response to the weekly prompt from #LOH I hope you all enjoy it.
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