A Daily Dose: A reason why we fall!

I can't see the way out. My vision is getting blur, and I'm breathing heavily. I am ashamed of what's going on in my life that I just let these waves conquer me. I am drowning in a sea of fears and disappointments. I'm even too tired to move a muscle.

I feel weak just by thinking about what I've had all these years. I'm always crying in silence because I suppose my tears aren't valid, that my feelings aren't valid. I don't have anyone to blame. It was my fault that I lived my life the way I wanted to. And that I never listened to what they were saying.

Was it wrong to make my happiness a priority? Is it selfish to follow my dreams instead of their dreams for me? From the very start, I knew what I wanted, and I knew what it would cost. But I chose to toughen it up and pursue my passion.

Now that I'm struggling to find the light, I can't seem to see that brave person in me. All that's left was a character of doubt and fear. I am afraid to fall down and never get up. I'm scared to be a failure.

What could happen to me if everyone would know about this? I know it would be such a mess. Some may even come up with a story, and I know for a fact that only a few would choose to know the story from me. People are people, and they always want to hear what they want to hear.

Sometimes I'm wondering why life has to be this way. Why do we have to get up and fall? Why do we have to experience the good and the bad to know life? Why do we have to be in a situation where we can't seem to do anything? Why do we have to question everything we don't know? I'm always asking but never got an answer.

I know that someone out there is happy, opposite of what I feel. And I know that I'm not the only one who feels alone and weak. I know that someone feels the way I do. But in this place, I am the only one.