I've been wanting to talk about this for some time now and as many of my followers have been asking me to write more written posts lately I thought it'd be a good time.
For a few years now - probably ever since I started to get into crypto and trading I've been having problems sleeping. I'm the kind of deep sleeper who has a hard time to wake up to anything, especially if I haven't gotten at least 6 hours of sleep and am in deep sleep at the time of having to wake up. This has lasted even longer, but lately I've been suffering from having a really hard time to fall asleep. Sometimes its so bad that I have to keep pushing my sleep forwards a couple hours daily until I get so sleepy and tired that I fall asleep withing minutes but it sure does not feel healthy. Not just the way I fall asleep but also longterm and that's something I've started to feel in my energy levels for a long time.
Its gotten quite bad lately, I'm the kind of person who usually gets comfortable quick and wants to keep doing what he does and any changes feels like too much work or that I can't be bothered with it - especially if its physical things. Talking about physical things I've also felt as doing certain activities is sort of like a waste of time or that I'll catch up with it later which has done even more harm to my current health.
Ever since into Steem and becoming more and more vested daily has brought this sense of being responsible for a lot of things. Even though I don't write daily or comment as much as I did in the beginning its not because I'm off doing other things like "having a life". I spend most of my waking hour around crypto and most of it being about Steem. I do feel a bit guilty lately though that I haven't been able to be 100% at certain things that I won't to do daily on/around Steem due to my energy which is caused from my lack of/difficulty sleeping.
I am not sure if a lot of it can even have to do with the sense of being close to a burnout or if its just the sleep problem, but I will in a couple weeks go and visit another place for vacation and been thinking of taking a break from my daily Steem "chores". Finding the time to do some physical activity there I think will also help my sleep more, especially being able to fall asleep. Having had my sleep pattern broken for this long it feels like it has become my new pattern but I hope there is a chance of getting it back to what it has been a little bit if only to help my energy levels come back to where they've been and be able to continue with physical activity not just for my sleep but for my health as well.
It's quite obvious that this current state has also changed me quite a lot and the way I behave around others, I've been reading back certain chats here and there during all the hours of not finding sleep and I've noticed a big difference to the person I used to be. Not just in a negative way but different. Some people have been blaming it on my position here, some friends even said it to me directly which I appreciate. Even though I don't think it has much to do with that I would not want to become one of those people I did not like myself when I was new here as I've worked hard over the years to try and listen to anyone on the platform and even though I am not able to answer to everyone as there are so many daily I try to not completely ignore them.
Anyway, I've been wanting to get back to writing more again and this might be a good time for it. Mind you, english is not my first language so you should not expect high quality writing skills nor am I trying hard at that as it'll be more of free writes and being able to connect and discuss things with my followers which I have enjoyed throughout the years no matter what mood I've been in.
Looking forward to writing more and the future ahead of this project and the people here and the ones yet to come!
Will try my best to take a lot of photos at my vacation and share them here with you all. :)
