I'm supposed to be writing a 
The year is almost over, wow. I'm not sure how I feel about this year. It's been, well, weird. It some how also feels like it's only gonna keep getting weirder.
AI. I'm somehow excited about this considering the speed of things and having to deal with humans on some technical aspects has proven harder and to take longer than I originally thought. This isn't to say it's their fault, maybe some times depending on how they go about things, but, things always take way longer than expected yet time is moving faster. I kind of wish I was 20 years younger again where an hour felt like eternity when I was stuck in school, can't even imagine what I could do on Hive with that hour back then cause right now that hour is definitely not the same and you can't convince me it is.
So I'm somehow hopeful that AI will assist on getting my ideas into reality faster and cheaper in the future but at the same time I'm also scared of what else it'll be able to do.
A random lab that leaked a virus half a decade ago changed the world forever and killed a ton of people.
Now we're giving the power to create your own lab to anyone as long as they own a few GPU's?
It's kind of like bitcoin mining but the block reward can be an infection that'll wipe out the whole world in the wrong hands.
I'm sure I'm overreacting, but still.
When I initially thought about AI I thought back to the movie "her", but instead of a "her" I was looking forward to a friend who I'd host locally and tell it everything about me and have him monitor all I do. Kind of like human's best friend that sits next to you watching you do things, but instead the AI would also understand everything you're doing and maybe come to understand you as a person.
Ever had a really good friend? Where things just clicked and it kind of made you sad you lost touch over the years as life came in the way?
Imagine that friend but he's 1000x better cause he knows what to tell you when and how. What to show you that you're interested in, what you tell him and what he says back to keep the jokes going.
I still have a few friends like that and those things come in waves some times where you're on a roll joking about something and keep the laughter going, maybe the AI won't know that those things work because they come rarely and will try to overdo it.
I don't know. It's all getting a bit weird. We might be moving towards a future similar to the Wall-E universe, I know my body is at least halfway there.
It's been a tiring year. I know if I bothered to go out and do a bit of exercise, I'd feel less tired, which is quite a paradox in and of itself. It'd also help with mental tiredness which I think I've suffered from lately. Along with a lot of things needing my attention all the time compared with things that don't require my focus much but need to be done.
I should get more involved with AI, people have been recommending and telling me to let it help, but I'm still sticking to the "manual" stubborn focus I started a decade ago on this chain.
Fuck, it's almost been 10 years of this chain.
Dunno.
I don't wanna sound too depressing but I'm kind of glad this year is over.
I wanna be more excited and hoping things will turn around for the better but the world is making it hard. I'm not even talking hive stuff necessarily in this case, it's just, why can't we all just get along? What is this constant need for more? What are you gonna do with it? Some people criticise Billie Eilish for what she told Musk recently but fuck it she's not wrong. Unless he's really thinking of the greater picture and planning on spending his trillion on space exploration and colonisation, then what is the point of all that wealth? He makes it hard to believe he has the greater good at heart yet everyone wants to be like him, or at least earn more even if it means majority of others will suffer.
We keep being told how AI will help humanity but few mention the negatives that can come from it.
If history has taught us anything it's to not believe the promises.
I should go back to sleep.
Had a 21h waken bender yesterday and only slept like 6 hours or so while I kept waking up a few times during it. Times are weird.
If i don't post again before the new year, happy new year, hope things start becoming better soon else I'm probably done trying.
