A person does not have to find the meaning of his life in beautiful things that make him happy, give him peace and make him feel good. I'm just realizing this and "What have I got to die for?" I see that every effort I make to find an answer to the question is futile.
I want to accept everything that makes me who I am. I want to digest, comprehend and most importantly understand; I want to understand myself.. to discover my own potential, to realize myself, to realize my essence, to know myself, to untie my own knot.
I want because..
hmmm...
why do I really want it?
I do not know.
I think I'm making such a request on the idea that this is the most logical way I can think of for now, do I need to justify it?
I don't know that either.
Damn it.
