I miss his gaze, I miss his smile, I miss his voice, I miss everything about him. He who won't miss me, he who doesn't know me. I'm just a part of the memory that has died, which is not possible to come back to life. He has been happy with his new life, the life that he had spent with me. I was too tired to wait for him, waiting for a miracle that could restore memories that made me able to last for a year.
God ... can I hold his hand? Can I hold her? Could I be with him as before? Impossible .. really impossible, he has forgotten me, he no longer knows me. Never mind .. I do not need to regret everything, even though he is not with me, he can still smile. Maybe I'm just a supporting role in her life. Yes, it is true.
Right now he is in front of me, but not a single glance he saw me. I just smiled at his face, the face that used to accompany me.
"Hey ... introduce me, I'm Adit ..."
I know.
He greeted me, he talked to me. What should I say? Should I remind him again that I was the person who was always beside him, or am I the person he loved? I'm really confused, even I can't make my voice, feels stiff and frozen.
"Hey .. hey ... I'm Adit, I think we are in the same class ... if I may know who you are? Emm ... which school graduate? "
I saw his face closer to me, but I still could not speak. Maybe I look like a stupid girl before him. I don't know ... I really am a stupid girl. Not feel my hand grabbed his shoulder and hugged him.
"I miss you" I said vaguely, but still he could still hear me.
I don't care about my position right now, but I'm a little calm because I can talk to him, can hug him, even though it's not the same as before.
A few minutes later I woke up, and let go of my arms. He looked confused, and looked at me with a questionful look.
"Do you know me?" he asked with a look he had once done to me.
Yes ... I know you, really know you, can't you remember me? I am your lover. I'm Vera, still the same as the old Vera. Adit .. please .. !! remember me even if only briefly.
"Ohh sorry. I do not know you .. "I answered in my flat voice.
No ... that's not what I want to say ...
"No ... I think I know you very well, umm you ..."
Yes ... yes ... remember who I am, and what my position was in your previous life.
"Sorry, I can't remember your name ..."
"I'm VE-RA ... V-E-R-A." I made my voice a little clear.
Still he could not remember me, it was all my fault, if only I had always been by his side, what happened a year ago would not have happened ... forgive me Dit ... it's not right for you to remember people who didn't pay much attention to you, just busy with themselves . This is my fault.
Dit, if you can't remember who I am, at least you remember all the promises that you have said before, you will never leave me in any case, will never forget the memories we have gone through, never will make me disappointed. But now everything's the opposite, you left me, you forgot everything, you now are not the first you. I should have ended it all. Because Adit is dead ... and you are not Adit. Why did I only realize everything after I got hurt? Can you feel what I feel right now? Can you hear my voice when you are in front of me ?. Goodbye Adit.
"Oh well, if you can't remember me it won't be a problem for me. I'm glad you turned out you still remember a little about me even though you don't know what it is, maybe someday you can remember everything
I intended to leave Adit, but in my first step Adit pulled my hand, and hugged me.
"Yes ... I remember you, remember you very much ... why didn't you tell me everything?"
"I have my reasons ..."
Finally ... I am very happy ... and I think I am the luckiest woman in the world. Very, very and very lucky. Turns out I was not a memory to die for him, I think he kept all the promises he had told me. I will always be by his side wherever he is.
"Do you really remember me?" I asked to be clearer.
"I remember you ..."
Thank God ... thank you for the destiny you have written for me and Adit, and thank you for reviving him.
After college, I immediately saw memories with Adit, my photo with him. When he hugged me, when he kissed me, when he pinched my cheek, everything was so clear here, everything was so beautiful and it was impossible to forget. I want to repeat it with her. I don't think Adit still fully remembers the past with me, and maybe if I show a little fragment of his memory he will realize everything. Yes..!!! I have to show it all to him.
I waited for him in front of the gate after class to show a photo of me and him. Previously I had sent a message to him, whether he would come or not. But I'm sure he will come, he will come.
A few minutes later he came with a girl who I thought was sweet, maybe he was his friend or something. Adit began to approach me with a smile that I liked, but after he faced me he introduced the girl with him.
"Ver, introduce me, this is Gita."
I smiled at the girl and then I said my name.
"I'm Vera."
"Oh yeah, Adit told me a lot about you ... he said you were a friend he just remembered ... You used to be in middle school, right?"
What? Friend? Does Adit remember me as just a friend? Then who is this woman?
"Oh .. yes ... if you may know, what is your relationship with Adit."
"Adit hasn't been with you yet? Basic Adit. He is my boyfriend .. "he said with a sweet smile.
After I heard the word "boyfriend" my body felt weak, I felt I could not hold back my tears, and I dropped the box containing the photo album.
"Take care of him, don't let him be lonely, never leave him in any case, love him always."
I began to move away from the two of them, even I forgot not to bring the box that I dropped. I think they are happy, I think I will only be the third person in their relationship. I decided to forget adit. I am not the luckiest girl in the world, but I am the most unhappy girl in the world. What would I do without him, without him by my side? Goodbye my old world, welcome to my new world.
