Love when it first happens, is a beautiful feeling. Everything begins to look colourful and full of life. You smile more , you dream more and the lyrics finally begin to make sense.. You work on yourself to look the best for the person you love, you go out of your way to make them smile, you lie just to be with them. Love makes you do things you never thought were possible otherwise.
There are a few out there who feel this love till their last breath with the person who made their world go round. Then there are those who go through a heart break and find feeling these feelings for another.. But the unfortunate few are those who feel it, get mercilessly torn by it and trapped by it for life. the death they die is as painful as the life they live. These emotional fools get trapped in a manipulative abyss which no matter how much they try, they can’t get out of. To love and not get love in return is a devastating feeling. When you give your all to a person who doesn’t give anything in return, you start doubting the very existence of love.
When in a relationship of this nature, you will be made to feel that you are being given the most freedom and are acting completely ungrateful. But keeping a cage door open and asking the bird to fly while tying its feet to the bars is no freedom. Your self esteem and self confidence will be broken first. You will be made to feel worthless and good for nothing. You will be bought to a state where you feel you are completely helpless without your abuser.
You need to first tell yourself and accept the fact that you are being abused. You need to be strong, you need to get independent, you need to be happy. They are your rights and no matter who thinks otherwise, you deserve it. You are the maker of your destiny. Your rise and your fall should solely be in your hands and control. It will be difficult but remember the pain, the guilt and the turmoil won’t last for ever, as everything including life is a temporary affair.