You know you shouldn't be stagnant that's why you're trying to move forward. Erase the feeling of "I can't" in your memory. It's that feeling that's keeping you back. You can do things. You are a special being, just as every other person you see around you doing well. It can only be terminal when you give up on yourself. Keep moving. Don't allow that feeling to take control of your life. Be in-charge, and push beyond. It might not feel easy, but to break the yolk, you need to be optimistic about your life and be positive. I'm sure you are a great person. Please, never give up, and I believe that one day, there would be a turn around. Much love from this end.