I'm already 29 years old, sometimes it hurts so much that I do not want to live. When friends ask about personal life, the heart seems to be torn apart. I have never had a relationship with a man, although I myself do not understand how it happened. I've never had a fan. Brought several times rudely on the street and everything - is it possible to somehow consider relations? Men who liked me did not pay any attention to me. Never.
About three years ago I met a guy at work, fell in love with him to the ears. He very much wanted to like it, but I did not really understand what I needed to do for this. I changed my image, tried to draw his attention, approached, started talking about work or some other topic, but nothing happened. He did not reciprocate.
Then somehow I happened to meet him on the street with a girl. He was smiling, happy, and I realized that I was not shining with him. The sensation was as if slashed with a knife. Yes, he did not have to love me, he did not promise me anything, but I needed him so much, I wanted love, I wanted to feel like a woman ... Yes, and honestly, I really want sex.
In general, for more than two years I was in a terrible depression, but I got out of there, gradually fell out of love with him and almost forgot. But it did not help me to build a new relationship with another man. Now I'm open to new feelings, but only mutual - these unrequited stories are no longer for me, once again I just will not survive. I do not know how to live further, what to do in order to realize my most cherished desire. Loneliness slowly and painfully kills me, and the feeling that life passes by me does not leave me.
I almost decided to get acquainted through the Internet on a dating site, although I consider this a dirty and shameful occupation. But do I have a choice?