I am so sad, can't break free of how I feel right now It's completely out of my hands. I been drinking a lot of wine tonight and the only way out is to drink more . I smoked enough pot to stop a clock. I just want everything to slow the fuck down. I feel I can't catch my breath. I so wish there was a remote for that.
My life is predetermined to be a chaotic fucked up mess.
FUCK!!!!!!!!!!! I use to have a way out some sort of release. fuckn Bullshit! There's No safe word here. It's fuckn life suck it up it's gonna be a BITCH! FUCK!!!.