Life waits for no one. I've heard that turn of phrase numerous times throughout my lifetime, and I suppose it's true, time does march on. It just feels like when you are afflicted with autoimmune disease that life is barely in your view most of the time.
That sounds a bit morose, I fully admit that, it's just that since I have returned home from our Vegas adventure I have been in the cusp of autoimmune illness flare-up hell.
Postmodern tech-infused life is a balancing act to keep up with as it is, there are so many demands baying at us constantly, especially if you have a family. And honestly, I love taking care of things, my family, people, land, you name it, but when your immune system is trying to end you it makes something that is already challenging downright hellish.
There are days, like today, where I am hurting so incredibly badly, have pushed myself for so long just to keep up, along with trying to implement all the wisdom of proper care of the self, where I am just ready to lay down in the yard and stare at the sky.
The thing is, I know I am not alone, and that gives me that little bit of oomph I need to pick up my carcass and keep on keeping on.
On the philosophical level, I know that keeping up is just an illusion. We don't need to keep up with anything. I do desire to do good though, which is why I don't quit.
But let me tell you my friends, there are days I just want to hang it all up and stop.
Trying to do advanced college math or write a research paper while being choked by your thyroid gland and navigating a foggy and inflamed brain is a bit trying, but I would probably feel this way anyway at this point in my life, so I'm just gonna push through.
Might take a nap though later.
That's the art of the act of keeping up. It is an individual tapestry as varied as the view each human sees when they look at the night sky. No single composition is the same, no single experience lived is of the same color, yet they are all struck on the same palette. There's peace to be had in pondering our shared yet unique experiences.
I just need to be mindful of that.
So today, if you are feeling as I am, overwhelmed a bit by it all due to the fallible, malfunctioning reality of living in a physical, decaying meat sack, then I am here for it with you. You don't have to keep up with everything, but that you try to keep up with anything, especially in the face of pain and challenge, makes you an awesome and amazing creature indeed.