it’s you
of course it’s you
it’s always been you
that’s what i’ve always wanted to hear
not that it’s very realistic
or even an ideal situation
after all i should know that you’re feeling that and not play the guessing game
but at the same time it would be so refreshing to be told that
that you are checking all of the boxes for this person
and i guess it is even nicer to hear if that person is checking all of yours as well
but as i said
it’s not very realistic
so i should probably begin to move forward
outside of the fact that it would feel great to hear those things
i recognize that i can’t change people
and you in particular
i’ve even asked you if there’s something i can do to help you change your mind
but nope
absolutely nothing i can do
so then what
should i keep falling in love
keep feeling the way i do
keep wanting you to no avail
keep feeling like i do
when you’re doing nothing to make me feel this way
i can’t stop it
and while i thought that distance and time would make me move on
it’s not working
you literally changed my life
there are people who make you see the whole world differently
that change your whole perspective on life
and you did that
you took me from innocence to experience
there’s no way to change what happened
so while i’m feeling lost now
i can’t understand how you can let me wander alone
i just don’t know
perhaps i am dramatic
i know i’m capable of it
i know it wouldn’t be the first time
perhaps i’m not though
and you actually did all of that and more
and denying this feeling is actually crushing me
where thinking about it makes me upset and confused
and i lay awake in bed cus when i fall asleep
i resort to hearing your voice in my dreams
telling me
it’s you
of course it’s you
it’s always been you
and i can’t tolerate to tell myself lies
filled with false hope
and something that you aren’t even capable of doing
i fell in love with the wrong girl
and now i’m trying to put the pieces of myself back together
after the hard fall and the shattered ego that followed
and i know you’re bad
you are SO bad
but i still love you
and i want to hear you say the words
it’s you
of course it’s you
it’s always been you