Man, I've been neglecting posting, but it is what it is. I've been working and working lately. Fun. But I have accepted it, I need the money. Blah.
I was dreading work yesterday and it affected my mood and actions for like the whole day prior. This annoying co-worker was living in my head rent free because this co-worker consistently brings drama and an attitude and I am not going to be pushed around. But luckily the shift actually went fine. Instead of being hostile I actually leaned into my faith and prayed that I would just stay calm. I had anxiety, but these actions helped. I had no fear, I was not going to argue, I was just gonna be mature about it. No arguments, but I know right from wrong and I was going to hold my position.
But yeah, as I said the shift went well enough. No job is perfect. The co-worker and I chatted here and there, got our work done and left. I even got a quick ride home from the co-worker. It was fine.
Now, I'm off and I can spend time with my son and hopefully actually create a few posts. My son was over yesterday on top of my anxiety and things like that, so It was just hard to get any writing in.
Blah. I also managed to get through yesterday with very little caffeine. Today I have some, so I am gonna just chill for a bit and then write.
I do want to push it with writing, but I also want to try and relax a little.
I was just so worried an argument would break out and I would lose ANOTHER job. I don't lose many jobs actually. But I've quit a fair few. Well, I'm still employed and it seems like I will stay employed.
Anyway, I am gonna just game and use this new ashtray and wait for my son to come over. I wanna show him the Ninja Turtles movie.
Ugh, I still feel a smidge of residual anxiety and things from yesterday. I am just gonna drink my caffeine and have a smoke and just chill for a minute or so.
It's supposed to rain today a lot too. Perfect day for just chilling.
Blah, Hive on folks.
Random song of the day. I have heard of Night Lovell and have respected his music, but lately I discovered some of his straight up underground classics that I somehow missed over the past seven years or so.
Finding new music is cool, but discovering old fire songs I was unaware of, is the coolest feeling.
Seven years late, oh well. That's why art is cool.
The sample in this song and the way it's used, is just LEGENDARY.
