Will be back on the nutrition course, and at least try to make something out of it. Part of me thinks it's too late. Then that's happened to me for so long. Everything has always been "too late". However the current lack of info in nutrition, and human rights is far surpassed by basic medicine. Who knew you could survive after drinking all that antifreeze. I thought i was going to finally experience inner peace. Who know? Perhaps I will be able to come close here on Earth. I'm skeptical, but stranger things have probably happened. Still don't think I should have to. In the authoritarian way people view the right to stop living, looks like I may just be stuck here. Even though in reality in the not to distant past I wouldn't've seen 20. Although I think I'm still allowed to express the deep disappointment that I did. While I guess try to move on with a life I didn't plan, ask for, and am not sure I really want. Until then here's to not getting drugs forced on me for wanting a quick and relatively painless death, that would make have a much more dragged out, and painful death.