Applying for jobs is taking all my energy! Why am I always the second runner up?

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Working as a freelancer has its advantages, I love being my own boss, and being able to spend a lot of time with my kids. On the other hand I find it hard to earn enough income, It's hard to find clients, and the one I find always push the prices too low so in the end sometimes it's not even worth it. Another problem is that I find it kind of lonely. I have a great home office in the garage, but I'm sitting there alone, day in and day out. No need for mascara or a nice clothes.

So lately I have applied for jobs. It feels like a curse because I'm always invited to interviews, and often I'm the last one of two standing... Too often a case is given and I then need to put my freelance life and family life aside (and Steemit) and go all in on the case to present for a hopefully future employer. Today I got another rejection! I've spent the last three weeks on two interviews and solving and presenting a case for them resulting in late nights, no time for the kids and a lot of nerves. For what? Being second best doesn't help when there's only one job! I have instead wasted time I could have used on freelance/illustration/family/vacation. I wish I could apply for jobs without solving a case along the way! Now I just feel empty, and need to keep going from where I left off.

Another problem... There's more fish in the local lake than there are available jobs in the creative industry.
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Seeing this on the positive side, I can go back to what I love, drawing and designing, posting here on Steemit, and spending time with my kids.
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Anyone out there in the same situation?

:) Helen

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