I like winter. Good time to cozy up! Moving kinda slow today. It is a ponder day. More of just looking at my life and deciding the next move! To make improvements!
These contemplative moments are important. Takes awhile to orient myself. I need to take a year off just to feel normal! I am! Starting now. Wish me luck.
Life has been such an emotional ride! Seen hardship and social incohesion. I like to take a look at the world at large as well as what takes place in the community. I find some ways they mirror each other. I feel the microcosm of the bigger picture within my unique perspectives.
After all the turmoil I want to find the sweet spot. I listen to allot of dark Industrial music, it helps. If anything it helps me see the dark and feel those emotions so I can bring the light! It doesn't help to pretend not to see the wrongs and negative aspects. When you ignore it it can come back to bite you. I never want to be fake happy. For that you need a tangible hope.
Just going through the motions. Talking to myself outloud! It's good. The more talk it out the better I know where I stand.
