Leaving Pakistan wasn't easy for me, but again leaving home never is and for me it was even worse, I am the youngest of my house, really close to my parents and had a big group of very loving friends, who treated me like family.
I can't tell you what I was feeling, because I didn't knew it either, I always wanted to go abroad but I wasn't sold on the idea to leave a really good life behind me.
A few days before my flight to Auckland I was talking to my mother and i remember telling her "maa I don't feel like leaving" and she replied " I don't feel like you are leaving either" somehow that made me believe that this was the place I am going to stay even if I leave, I will always be there.