– Lao Tzu
Hello there Hive! It’s VirgoxSy at your service. Virgox originated from my zodiac sign, Virgo which means Virgo the virgin or maiden.
I’m 18 years old turning 19 in the next 9 months. I’m 5’6, matched with a slender figure, has tan skin, along with deep black eyes and elbow-level brownish hair. Currently studying as a graduating senior high school student. I’m a sister of two siblings who were both born as a boy.
Within my 18 years of existence, the only work I’ve done was, when I was in Junior high school, selling a variety of accessories such as hairpins, scrunchies, earrings, and many more. I also tried selling banana cue, (fried bananas that have been caramelized in brown sugar and then impaled unto bamboo sticks) and camote cue (done with the same process as the banana cue). This was one chapter of my existence that I would gladly remember as my days go by, for this is the time when I learned how painstaking it is to earn a living.
Challenges I’ve Encountered
Losing Self-esteem
When I was in grade school I wasn’t as academically conscious as I’m now. Back then I was academically active, I was not afraid to enter contests, like dancing, singing, doing outdoor activities, and other performance that includes performing in front of numerous people, this mindset of mine did not change even when I ascended in middle school not until I transferred to another school exclusive only for senior high school students, which was way different from when I was in my junior years. I became conscious of my abilities, and whether I’m good enough to partake in certain performances.
I began comparing myself to others. I’d sometimes look at myself in the mirror and began eyeing my appearance, then I’d ask myself “Am I fat? Should I eat less? Why am I not like other pretty ladies out there who are effortlessly beautiful and flawless”. This perspective led me to change myself for what I think is good, but it isn’t, I began skipping meals and changing my hair color including my hairstyle. Then a month after that I experienced an ulcer attack, it was so painful that I couldn’t stand or eat even if I wanted to.
I overcame this by opening up to my mom regarding these concerns. And slowly I started realizing that there is nothing that I should change about myself.
Traveling to school on a motorcycle
Dwelling in a place that is 17 km from the school where I’m currently studying, is quite a huge adjustment. I’d wake up early and prepare food before I go to school. But the most challenging part is when the motorcycle tire, I’m using would suddenly go flat while I’m on the road driving. The feeling of helplessness would devour my being, and that’s why I decided to cease using our motorcycle and ride in my friend’s vehicle instead.
Responsibilities as a daughter
As the first-born child of my mom and dad, I’m expected to take on the responsibilities at home such as guiding my brothers towards the right path. I’m also expected to take charge of household chores and become a role model for my brothers.
Dancing to the Beat
I have never imagined that I was good at dancing I was too shy to get out of my comfort zone until I got selected as one of the performers for our production number back when I was in grade school. I continued dancing, especially on TikTok (a hosting service for brief videos).
Singing to my heart’s content
I love singing though my singing voice isn’t as good as Morisette Amon's or Regine Velasquez Alcasid, I would still sing especially when I’m cooking for breakfast, supper, or lunch. I also experienced being a representative for our section in a singing contest for Buwan ng Wika, even though I did not bring home the bacon, it was still a spontaneous chapter in my life that I will cherish.
An artist by heart
It really mesmerizes me every time I watch some drawing or painting videos on TikTok or YouTube. Bearing the thought of how talented the artist of that said painting or drawing is. Then I’ve seen a video explaining how drawing isn’t just pure talent but can also be attained by practicing for a long time. That’s when I tried drawing my favorite anime character, and my first attempt wasn’t that bad rather it just needs a little improvement on the details. Since then, I drew from to time e, especially on my vacant times.
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Why am I here?
Being a part of this wonderful community may help me on my journey in sharing my enthusiasm, abilities, and experiences in Hive. I see reading your blogs as a chance to make new friends, learn more, and encounter new things. It will be my new channel for blogging about and transmitting our sentiments and emotions.
I want to appreciate and express my sincere gratitude to @callmesmile for giving me the chance to share my experiences and beliefs on Hive. This will be an opportunity for me to hone my writing abilities and fulfill my desire and aspiration that people would read about me and be inspired by my story.
Thank you for taking the time to read my introductory blog! Nice to meet you all! See you soon in my next blog!