Guess what? I've been approved! So now, what should I do? As what typical scenario when you are a newbie, comes first with introducing yourself. So here I go.....
November 7,1999 was the date. It was when a mother bore her 8th child. The baby was pretty much look like her mom. They raise her well disciplined and respect towards other people. She grown up a beautiful lady and more matured. And that lady happened to be me.
Olaah steemians! The newbie is just arrived. I am Jamaica Pulvera Paquibot, 18 Philippines! I am a grade 12 student taking up General Academic Strand at one of the public schools here in Cebu. I am the youngest of the family. I believe that the youngest of the family are the beautiful ones. And I am the proof. HAHAHA kidding. Basically I am a type of person that is fond of reading books with a twist of interest. I also do love watching Korean novelas like ' The Heirs, Black, Goblin and such (Btw Hi for those k-pop fanatics out there). Watching K-dramas completes my day. It seems like the character had all the things I wish i have. By just merely watching it, It felt like Im living through them.
Many people see me as jolly, on going person, happy go lucky. of course that's what Im showing to others. But there's a part of the brain holds the negativity on it. I had a lots of what if's in my life, pessimistic thinking covers my whole being and insecurities kills me. Im holding so much secrets but I choose to be in silent and leave the things untold. Im scared. Im scared being laugh by others, Im scared to be just an option, Im scared to be rejected. But you know what? I didn't go far to depression. The thoughts about my family prodded me on. I just realized I have a family after all. And faith to God.
I wish my life was just like a fairy tale, where there's no space for pain. A fairy tale I wish to have an existence. But life is unfair. Until a member of the family gone. I question God. Why it has to be me? Why of all the people who done big sins, but still in me? why can't those people rather? And then realization hits me, maybe it destined to happen, maybe God did it as a challenge to our family, and maybe everything happens for a reason.
One thing I've learned from this life is that I choose to stand and lift up the vulnerability on me.It made me a strong woman, a daughter and a person to live the life I have and make it better, because whatever happens " Life has to go on"
So much for my introduction. This platform is actually new to me. I am not used to writing, I am not really expressive on my thouhts, feelings, Ideas or whatsoever. But I open up my heart and let steemit entered into my life. I hope to stay connected with you guys:) Thank you steemit for the approval:)