Wlcome, thankyou for your honesty. You write with passion, and I hope you'll channel your energy outwards to help others, rather than burn within. Write a lot here, without getting discouraged by measuring your worth by rewards. It's a good place to vent and cleanse. Blessings!
RE: Confessions of A Chronic Cheater: My Spiritual Awakening and How I Learned to Love Myself Again