Ya I glad that you had the opportunity and birthday present of getting that job offer! That’s definitely a sign of some good fortune.
It’s important to also be honest with yourself like you have and I think it’s great. The job is what you thought of as your dream but it’s not exactly shaping up to be that. That’s the interesting thing about these things, where we finally get it and then realize “damn this part of it sucks!” The important thing that I’ve always kept in mind is we use these things as stepping stones. Take the experience you’re earning there, do things you may have never done before and use those towards your next opportunity. You don’t know when that will be of course but you should try to stick it out another year or two. Three years in a position is usually sufficient to people who are hiring to say you’ve gotten the most out of it to be considered for a position elsewhere. Too soon and they will think you’re jumpy and won’t last.
RE: Accepting Impermanence and Opening Up to Change