Hope you will find some peace, even if that isn't in your homeland and you have to move on!
I never thought this would go on for more than half a year, but this really seems like its going to go on for a long time, and no one wins, everyone losses the longer it goes on. Glad you're still safe and hope you're still able to build a life for yourself
RE: Depression, panic attacks. It's taking over me. I'm trying to deal with it.