Life was fun when I had my grandma around. I was completely in pain when she died and I was to live with my grandfather. The love I had for my grandma made me not feel or see any love shown to me by my grandfather. The praises he sang to me just for me to be happy and do the chores I have to do in a happy state.
For several years I refused to love or see any good in what my grandfather was doing. One day, I saw my grandfather lying helpless on the bed. He wasn't healed, the only thing I could remember he took that day was this hot gin which I guess he took too much.
It was a very unexpected sleep,one that lasted forever. I wasn't close to my grandpa but that incident made me realize that we might feel we don't need a particular person in our life only to realize that we actually love that person when something tragic happens.
It was when I found out he wasn't responding that I felt the first shock in my life. I rushed by his side , my scream was what attracted the attention of others. He was rushed to the hospital and all I could think about was who would keep me company.
After some time, I found out he was contributing to my emotional well-being. I realized the wonderful memories he shared with me I didn't value. I felt so bad for not making him happy as he tried to make me feel.
I remembered the time he would wait outside trying to keep me company until I finished making supper. Trying to engage me with stories of his youthful age and how his entrepreneurial spirit paid off. All these I would be paying deaf ears to not minding if he's pained or not.
It was after his departure that I realized that valuing others is a necessity in life. I didn't value his presence in my life and that same presence was the same thing I sought for but couldn't find a replacement even till now. Cherishing beautiful moments with others can mean so much to them.
The experience taught me to see reasons to create a lasting memory with people who care about me. I should be able to reciprocate the same love and time they are trying to show me. I was unable to appreciate my grandfather, it was when he was no more I saw meaning in his acts but there was no more chance for me to show my gratitude.
It was after his departure that I realized that valuing others is a necessity in life. I didn't value his presence in my life and that same presence was the same thing I sought for but couldn't find a replacement even till now. Cherishing beautiful moments with others can mean so much to them.
With that mistake already made, I have been careful and striving to make the best out of every moment I share with people that value my worth and show me genuine love. I realized that my never trying to see the love and kindness my grandpa was showing me made me live a life of 'I'm sorry grandpa' with the unexpected incident, I have grown to learn that there is no point postponing anything which is of use and it's impactful.