Such a relatable story for so many. The debilitation is such an important element that so many people don't understand until they've lived it. Too often the people that care for us tell us things like "Just apply for more jobs" or "just get up and be productive" but sometimes these things can feel impossible. Sometimes the place we feel the safest is in bed, and especially with severe anxiety, sometimes actually being asleep is the only time we feel any relief.
As far as suggestions, it seems like you've taken the first step in actually being open about your struggle and even this can help with the processing of these emotions and issues.
Love that you're not a quitter, and want to wish you the best with your journey.
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